Going into the holiday season is usually one of my favorite times. Hang the lights, eat all the sugar, drink all the coffee, watch Elf thirty times, and buy all kinds of presents. Right now we are smack dab in the middle of Thanksgiving and Christmas though, and I feel a bit sluggish and nostalgic.
My pastor recently did a series of sermons on how social media can lead us into dangerous comparison cycles. I recently stepped back from all social media except instagram. I stopped following over 200 accounts, and am limiting myself to brief times on the app as well. I think after all the changes that have been going on in my life recently it is best to give myself time to step back and heal. I understand that for the most part people only show the best parts of their lives. I know I do it, and we are all guilty. Is it because we think nobody will care? Is it because we don’t want people to think we are complaining? I mean yes, I am truly blessed with a home, a wonderful family, two hilarious dogs that keep me busy, and a Lord that loves and forgives me, but that doesn’t mean I can’t be sad online, right? What you see of me on social media is filtered, cropped, and happy because I like to make others smile. What you may not know is that I’m sad sometimes. I have been through a divorce, am learning to live on my own again, and trying to pick up the pieces. It’s hard. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve been through, but there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I am not angry or bitter, but I am sad sometimes. Big changes in life are always scary, and it’s normal to fear the unknown. I’m trying to keep myself busy during this time, but any indoor suggestions or Netflix shows are greatly appreciated since the weather seems to be getting cooler now.
I am trying to keep my mind in the right place and stay strong. I’ll raise my glass of hot chocolate to all the others going through hard times during the winter. Just remember, spring is always coming.
‘Weeping may endure for the night, but joy comes in the morning’ Psalms 30:5